little girl, big thoughts.
deprived of security, because you took it away.
it all ends up a burden i can no longer carry.
please, rid me of my misery.
save me from the fate i want for myself.
a leap of faith?
a necklace around my itching neck?
a stab wound to stop you from putting multiple knives in my heart?
stripes on my arms,
black clouds on my legs,
all lead me to one place.
Freedom.
i dream big of freedom,
but never from you.
we were flying, us against the world,
we were happy, we knew what to do.
then one day, you lost your wings,
you fell down, fell out of love.
frantic, i flew down with you.
guess who’s the fool.
staring at this blank screen, i realize that i do not have much to say. a few hours into my new chapter, and yet i already fear i may have lost it. i think to myself, did i make the wrong decision?
did WE make the wrong decision?
my most dreaded nightmare, and for you, a dream come true.
don’t worry, my love. our separation is my wake up call. i will not waste it.
i promise you.
how do i sleep
with a heavy heart?
without the person i need
to keep me from falling apart?
So much is going on in my head
So many thoughts, so many killers
It’s funny
How painkillers exist
We don’t kill pain
It kills us
We had a choice. We could have fought for us.
We could have stayed in the arms of each other.
We had a choice to be happy together.
But, we don’t always get what we want.
You went away. You left.
We never wanted to fade away.
But some things just aren’t supposed to stay as it is.
I could’ve chosen you, but you’re too far away.
And you took your heart with you, leaving mine behind.
my mind 